Letting Go, Moving On and Changes

On Friday night I went to a going away celebration for some friends that are moving to Dallas, I wish I had been a better blogger and taken pictures besides of what I wore...but in my defense I was .exhausted. like had someone drive me home because I was afraid I would fall asleep exhausted. Always the life of the party this one.

I hate 'letting go' of friendships, there is something about that feeling that causes a ridiculously high amount of melancholy to settle in my soul and it takes a lot to let it go. Dallas really isn't that far from Austin but I don't make the 3 hour trip to Houston to see my family but 2-3 times a year so I don't foresee myself jetting up to Dallas too often. This is a couple that I have spent birthdays, holidays, random Saturdays with for the last seven years so saying goodbye to them was disappointing. 

I am making this sound extremely depressing I know...drama queen much...but something I have begun to notice is that as we start making choices for our own little families we end up losing friendships that we once held dear to us. This couple wanted something different than the friendships we could offer them: they wanted play dates and kids for their kids to play with and couples who want kids like yesterday and to live in suburbia...I completely understand the need to make choices for your own family...but I am not going to lie and say it didn't sting a little bit. Yes that makes me sound incredible selfish...sue me.

As I began to realize I was being a little judgmental, for choices that I couldn't understand, I felt guilty. 

Because the mister and I have been making some pretty big choices for our little family and I know that other people are judging those choices because they don't understand where we are coming from. And I let other people's judgements bother me way more than I should.

The mister and I decided to buy a house, I have shared this news with a few close friends and family members and I was waiting for this reaction.

But instead I got the: that's interesting or when are y'all getting married. Your enthusiasm is overwhelming...thanks.

Regardless of other people's opinions we were pretty happy with our decision, found an ideal neighborhood that we could afford and were going to build a new place and even got pre-qualified for a mortgage. Holy shit batman, I am pretty sure this makes me a grown up.

Then came the kicker, Austin is in such high demand that down payment assistance for first time home buyers is basically non existent. And we make a little, like barely over the limit, to get assistance through a program that helps teachers.

Disappointed would be an understatement. I had a friend comment, well don't you have 3.5%...that's basically nothing...who has 3.5% of the cost of a house sitting around? I think I have $45 sitting in my bank account so thanks for rubbing it in that I obviously make less than you.

So we have moved onto plan B. We plan to rent a cheap small apartment for the next 12 months and save the difference to use as our down payment at the end of this period...if we don't kill each other first. It's the responsible decision to make and the best decision for our family. But I am not going to lie and say that moving on from our first place together has been easy, I feel like I have been in a constant state of stress since we turned our sixty day notice in last week. 

So here is life for the next two months:
.next weekend. find a place to live.
.following weekend. garage sale, sell all of our things.
.first weekend in May. five day weekend in Chicago.
.two weekends later. move out of the house.
.two weekends later, Memorial weekend. turn our keys in.

Oh and you know continue teaching and you know living life. 

If you follow me on instagram, you probably already got a sneak peak of the craziness that has become my house. We have to somehow purge enough of our stuff from our four bedroom house, in order to be able to to actually live comfortable in whichever two bedroom apartment we find...aka...the mister prefers to not shimmy around boxes of my things on a daily basis. At first I was being a bit sentimental about all of my things, but after my second and third go around I realized its just stuff. 

Just the start of the garage sale pile.

So in the spirit of all of these big changes I am letting go of things from the past, moving on from stuff and friendships that I don't need to hold onto and only tackling those that I can take on...one at a time. With that being said I might not be around this little ole blog that much over the next few weeks so bear with me while we adjust to all of these changes.

- The Babbling Box!


  1. I totally understand your pain of being left behind when friends move on to different stages of life without you. I have exactly one girlfriend here who isn't married and doesn't have kids. I love her. She's my lifeline. I mean... I love my other friends too, but sometimes it's so nice to hang out with other people who are at the same place in life. And I think that's why they make the decisions to hang out with other married couples with kids. It's not personal, it's just life. But it totally still sucks, so I feel ya.

    In regards to your move, I think you guys are making a responsible choice. Who cares if other people don't understand it? I don't understand how so many people from high school are already divorced... so there's that!

    Also? CHICAGO is a month away! Which means we have exactly that much time to convince Alison to get her butt up here so the three of us can laugh our asses off together! Otherwise she will just have to be jealous of us having all the fun without her!

  2. 3 hours is definitely not close enough to just drop by and hang out anytime, so I can understand your sadness over your friend moving away! Good luck getting everything sorted and organized! It will feel great when it's all said and done. Thanks for linking up to Manic Monday!
    On the Daily Express

  3. HEY.....I am TOTALLY going to be jealous of the two of you(Erin & A) hanging out without me. I WISH I could come in one month. DAMMIT! I'm proud of you and the Mister for making grown up choices and for you realizing that your stuff is just that....stuff. I used to be really sentimental about things, but then realized I enjoyed looking at pictures of stuff much more than I enjoyed dusting around the stuff. Plus...you will get to buy new stuff when you get a new house. It gives you one full year to look around and really pick out things that compliment your personality and style. Online window shopping is free and harmless...so I tell myself. XO
    Rockin' and Lovin' Learnin'

  4. Parting with friends and fellows is tough, since they also help in making the space a wonderful place to leave in. Things would seem like they have shifted around you, even if you yourself have not moved an inch. But they probably have all the right reasons to move in to Texas. Just wish them the best, and that they come visit every once in a while. Hang in there.

    Traditions Realty

  5. Aw- you're moving! That's exciting. Screw em that ask those judgmental, annoying questions. I think it's great. And when we bought our house we didn't need a down payment and now, things have changed and we now will need a down payment on our next place.. um, yup.. pretty impossible. Like you said.. we had negative 2.00 in our account the other day.. LOL!

    Good on ya for keeping a positive head on your shoulders. It's life and you're living it!